bon voyage

{our family.  as pirates.  by karl}

It's time to go.  And the best part about that is that it means that Maximus is healthy enough to go.  We have the hand therapist all set up in Kauai.  And I say, "the" because there is only one on the whole island.  We will take a suitcase full of bandages and tapes(who knew there could be so many kinds?)  and lotions and goos, and continue the stretches and dressing changes on our own.  Karl has a meeting here September so he will bring Maximus in to see the doctors and therapists here.  And we will come back again during the holidays.  

I feel a new kind of scared that I have never felt before.  I am scared to do this all on our own. Meaning, my little family.  My big family has been insanely helpful.  We stayed here when Maximus was born and my dad would watch him so I could take a bath and get ready for the day.  Those that have had new borns know that being able to count on some time to get ready for the day is priceless.  Now, my dad takes Maximus on a walk, and I am guaranteed that time again.  And, let me tell you, it's even priceless-er than priceless. Tonight, my dad mentioned that tomorrow morning will be their last walk and... well... I get pretty weepy thinking about it.  Sentimental and practical kind.  It makes me sad to take Maximus away and I also really need that help.  

I know we will manage.  I know we can do it.  And it's time.  The kids are already missing their second week of school and our house is sitting empty.  And part of my heart is in Kauai. Ugh.  My heart is in two places.  Okay, fine, it's in lot's of places because I still have a list of places I would love to live.  But mostly it's in two places.  

I know that we will be fine.  Hehe.  Does it sound like I am trying to convince myself?  When I think about getting on the airplane, I get the same feeling that I get when I think about jumping off the high dive.  

So, we're setting sail.  Leaving on a jet plane.  Peacin' out.  Sniffle sniffle.  Going to see our house, our car, our Kauai people.  Hooray hooray!